J’ai lu “Etre ici est une splendeur” de Marie Darrieussecq (puis “Le bébé” du même auteur car souvent les bons livres donnent envie d’en lire d’autres) (aparté sur laquelle je reviendrais peut-être) sur les conseils d’une libraire interviewée pour La Grande Librairie. Et merci à cette libraire, car j’y ai découvert une artiste femme forte, déterminée, talentueuse, habitée par son art. Avec un destin tragique (elle meurt peu de temps après avoir accouché, à 31 ans) mais une vie riche et foisonnante, de rencontres, de nature, d’amour, de déceptions, de poésie aussi. Cet ouvrage a su me captiver et donne envie de se plonger dans ses peintures, afin d’y déceler au détour d’une couleur, les émotions qui pouvaient la traverser.
Since december, I have got my name on a paper, an official paper, saying that I am the lease holder of an appartment. My first real appartment. The place where I am / we are going to live at least one year. I am a person who can feel herself at home pretty quick and almost everywhere but there is a time when moving a lot can become a problem. When it is not a self aware kind of choice.
I loved all these years (more than ten years already!) living with people, sharing a flat with friends, with strangers, sleeping on my brothers/friends couches. Having the possibility to pack my bag and being the next day to a new place, a new city, a new country was the freedom I did choose for many years.
Since september, I am working in Paris and happily pregnant. The time has come to settle down for a while. Surprisingly, I feel relief. Because we have plans, we are becoming parents and I am not by myself and living just for me anymore. Time has come and I finally know what it is like to have a purpose bigger than my own little person. It feels pretty amazing.
I feel so lucky. A place where I can go anytime! Where I can cook! Where I can put my stuff on the walls and light some candles whenever I want to! Where I can paint and draw! Where I can clean up after my own mess!
People should never underastimate the luck they have to call a place “home”.
Obvious pregnancy tips
As I am in the middle of my second trimester, I thought I would share some tips. Nothing unexpected or that you have never heard before but I can see it is working for me or at least until now. It is helping me to stay healthy and relax during this special time.
- Your body is changing and you can get tired very quickly so one advice: take it easy ! Don’t rush, don’t push yourself too hard especially at work. You are now breathing for two, it can be exhausting. On the other hand, you can sometimes feel a lot of energy within yourself. Take advantage of these days to do yoga or to go swimming. It is good in every way: body, mind, spirit. Being slow does not mean being inactive.
- Eat clean. Although I tend to eat as clean as I can (I am not perfect), I also never restrain myself. Variety is the key. No meat or fish for me but I am used to do so since I am fifteen. There is not one single rule when it comes to food. Except maybe no alcohol and listening (at least considering it) what your doctor tells you.
- Follow an easy and simple routine. I never wear a lot of makeup but I am trying to focus on the quality of my skin. Dry skin is never confortable so I use a body cream (odorless) more than usual. After the first semester, your hair won’t need a lot of caring: the hormones make them grow faster and less oily that is why I tend to keep a very minimalist routine.
- Love yourself. Your baby will thank you and your partner will love you even more. It will help you going through the pregnancy, no doubt. Obviously, you will gain some weight but it is for a good cause, it is better not to care too much as long as you are healthy.
- Read as much as possible! Having a brain activity is so important. Essays, fiction, non-fiction, books about pregnancy… Whatever. The point is to stimulate your imagination, your critical thinking, to get informations and a lot more.
- I know, I said to take it easy. But being pregnant also means that you have a lot of administrative procedures to do, documents to fill in and appointments to attend. I am very very bad at doing these things but since september I try to do it on time because I am no longer on my own. Yes it is boring and not fun but it is for the best. Getting stuff done is important.
- I never thought I would be pregnant while living in Paris, I always thought I would be in the countryside. I need fresh air, trees, long walk in the forest or just being surrounded by silence or the singing of the birds. Observing nature is necessary if I want to stay positive. I know I should go more in parcs or force myself to escape the city even a few hours…
Above all, I believe the key is to listen to yourself and your body. Make some small changes in your everyday life if you feel the need but nothing too dramatic. Try to avoid stressful situations and take care of yourself. And as my doctor said “you’re pregnant, not sick.”
PS: Happy birthday my love.
Pensive girls, abstract & landscapes
1) Cathy Cullis 2) Xuan Loc Xuan, Ernst Ludwig Kirchner 3) John William Goodward, Curlowe 4) Charles Wilkin, Mouni Feddag 5) Carl Wilhelmson, Misato Suzuki 6) Devon Aoki by Mario Sorrenti, Petra Collins 7) George Spencer Watson, Antra Svarcs 8) Photo of Jane Burden Morris, Monica Barengo 9) Olga by Picasso, Bertha Lum 10) Fairfield Porter (& last painting), Anne-Sophie Tschiegg.